Tonight I am angry and bitter. I am done.
I am done with busting my ass for everyone else and when I need a human there isn't one to be found.
I am done fighting for others when no one will step up and fight for me.
I am done being the miracle for everyone else when it feels like there is no miracles left when I need one.
I am done trying to hold my family together when there is no one left to hold me together.
I am done creating beauty in the lives of others when no one wants to put beauty back into mine.
I am done hurting.
I am done fighting.
I am done trying to fix it.
I'd say I give up, but that's not really an option.
Right now, for this moment. For this night. I am DONE.
And tomorrow I will pick up the pieces and start all over again. I will make the phone calls to try and fix it and I will take the phone calls to try and help others. Tomorrow I will be the person the world thinks I still am inside but for tonight I just can't keep pretending any longer. I'm done.