Tuesday, August 20, 2013

I am done.

Tonight I am angry and bitter.  I am done.

I am done with busting my ass for everyone else and when I need a human there isn't one to be found.

I am done fighting for others when no one will step up and fight for me.

I am done being the miracle for everyone else when it feels like there is no miracles left when I need one.

I am done trying to hold my family together when there is no one left to hold me together.

I am done creating beauty in the lives of others when no one wants to put beauty back into mine.

I am done hurting.

I am done fighting.

I am done trying to fix it.

I'd say I give up, but that's not really an option.

Right now, for this moment.  For this night.  I am DONE.

And tomorrow I will pick up the pieces and start all over again.  I will make the phone calls to try and fix it and I will take the phone calls to try and help others.  Tomorrow I will be the person the world thinks I still am inside but for tonight I just can't keep pretending any longer.  I'm done.

2 comments:

Elise said...

you aren't alone. one day at at time, one second at a time sometimes. Here's hoping tomorrow is better. ((Hugs))

Stephanie Miller said...

This brought me to tears....it spoke to all I am feeling right now....so yes you are not alone. I think there are so many people out there suffering like we are. If you need someone to lean on who is in the exact same boat you are...I am here.